tosca「勝手におしまい？」
「君のそばにいたいしね」
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「勝手におしまい？」
掛け違ってた、それはとっくに
ビターエンドのためのプロット
拝啓プリマドンナ結末は雨のベランダ
「いつになっても二人一緒ね」とか
甘ったるい夢を見ちゃって
なんて自分勝手、気味悪いな
匂いの染みた君の忘れ物
それだけで済めば足を止めた
降りしきる中、誰の声がした？
いつも今頃は君を見てた
まるで雲の上 月のように揺れる
雨の音 間に受けた
飛び立って空に舞ってそれが望みなら
騒ぐ風と袖 身に染みて
せまる水溜まり鈍色に
でもきっと、またずっと。
君は逃げるだろうしね
すれ違っても君はさっぱり
理にかなってたクズのメソッド
本音、それはどんな？
気づかないフリを選んだ
大人ぶったり寂しがったり
時にベッドで嘘を探って
全部今になって恨めしいな
傷が増えても心が解けて
形あるものは消えてくれた？
まるで悪夢のよう、逃げ場なく息は
苦しくてうるさくて
でもきっと、いまやっと楽になれたから
泥が打ち上がる、鮮やかに
夏の夜空から溢れてく
飛び立って宙に舞って
君のそばにいたいしね
「一過性の短絡思考でまっさらになったわけじゃなくても
自分だって苦しがってずっと共犯者でしょ？」
”嫉妬だなんだヒスるばっか、ずっとそんなんじゃ、なんなの？
だから、だけど、二人分け合って一緒ならなんとかなるのにさ”
誰も後戻りできないよ
ここでエンドロール、二人きり
手をとって抱き合って幕が閉じるだけ
まるで雲の上
天と地の分けた境界線睨むけど
呼び合って泣いたってそれも無駄なのさ
淀む水溜り泥々に
せめてしめやかに雨の音
でもきっと、いまやっと楽になれたよね？
飛び立って地を這って
君を捕まえたしね
「KTB with me?」
We got it wrong long ago already,
A plot designed for a bitter ending.
Dear primadonna, our finale waits
On a rain-soaked balcony.
“Maybe we’ll always stay together,”
Dreaming something far too sweet.
God, I’m so selfish—
Even I disgust myself.
Your forgotten things still stained with scent,
If only that alone could stop my feet.
In the pouring rain, whose voice was that?
Around this time, I was always watching you.
Like floating above the clouds,
Swaying softly like the moon,
I took the sound of rain too seriously.
If flying away into the sky
Is really what you wished for,
Then the screaming wind and soaked sleeves
Cut straight into me.
Gray puddles closing in below—
But surely, forever and ever,
You’d still run away from me.
Even when we crossed paths
You stayed so cold and detached,
Your trashy methods somehow made sense.
Tell me, what was your truth?
You chose pretending not to notice.
Acting grown-up, acting lonely,
Searching for lies in bed at night—
Now every bit of it haunts me.
Even as the wounds increased,
Did everything with form finally disappear?
Like living in a nightmare,
No escape, no room to breathe.
Painfully loud, painfully heavy.
But maybe now, finally,
I can breathe easier at last.
Mud splashes upward vividly,
Overflowing from the summer night sky.
Fly away, drift through the air—
Because I still want to stay beside you.
“Even if impulsive thoughts
Didn’t completely wipe everything clean,
You suffered too, didn’t you?
You were my accomplice all along.”
“Always whining about jealousy,
Always hysterical—what even are you?
Still… if we shared the burden together,
Maybe somehow we could’ve made it.”
No one can go back anymore.
This is the end roll now—just the two of us.
Holding hands, embracing tight,
As the curtain quietly falls.
Like standing above the clouds,
Staring at the line dividing heaven and earth.
Even if we call each other’s names and cry,
It’s useless now.
The puddles stagnate, thick with mud.
At least let the rain sound gentle.
But surely now, finally,
You’ve found peace too, haven’t you?
Flying high, crawling low—
And now, at last,
I’ve caught you.